Friday, February 20, 2009

Recently, been feeling... nothing.
Nothing at all. Zero. Zip. Na-da. And the cause of it is... I still don't know what it is.
Before I started writing this, I thought of so many things to write.
But once my fingers start dancing on the keyboard, all were lost.
Can't really explain what is happening to me.
Started just yesterday. I suddenly felt so bored. Bored of everything.
I'm starting to pretend, pretend about my emotions.
Just the other day, I laughed. Laughed my usual laugh.
But deep down, I myself know that I'm kidding myself. WHY!
And recently, I'm easily pissed with people. I don't understand why.
Am I turning into my old usual, hot-tempered self again?
No, I don't want to turn into that person anymore.
I realize, that person is nothing but a burden, a burden to self, and to others.
It's weird. I'm be turning into one of many that thinks someone is out there, trying to get me.
Ironically, I just had a chat with a friend, and I told her that we must always have trust in people, because not all people have other intentions, that at least one is true in nature.
What a hypocrite I am.
Usually, I'm the one that tells people not to give up. But right now, I myself can't stop myself from giving up.
I can't take this anymore. But everything will be alright, I just need time. Time is all I need, and something that I'm running out of.
"The storm is brewing. The winds howling. A great fire approaches, as the demons are unleashed from the depths of hell. Night has begun, a great shadow arises, enveloping all light. But fight on my warriors, for the hour of victory is upon us, the might of the light shall never waver, nor shall it fall... Be strong, and fight on... and when you can't fight anymore, just say, 'I can, and shall...' "

Friday, February 13, 2009

Thank You HueyWen!!!

Yeah~!
Thanks to her, now I get to play chess, chinese chess, mahjong(?) and other games on the net. Free some more... hehe. Thanks!
Just played a few games of mahjong and one game of chess. So nice! People there not that bad, not that good also la I guess. But still, been a while since I played, so now I'm so happy!
Yippee!!!
"Some things, when not in touch for long, brings back everlasting bliss when found once again... For that, we must truly be ever grateful when the things we thought are lost, are reunited with us once again"

Thursday, February 12, 2009

This is so...

Scary.. Creepy...
I just checked my hotmail inbox and there was an email from a certain person, saying that she found (found?) my profile at google.com...
She intro-ed herself and asked for my email... =_= swt betul...
AND GUESS WHAT!?
THE SUBJECT OF THE EMAIL IS "Hi Dear," <-- O_O (wtf?)
"Sometimes, it be best for people to not be able to find you..."

Wednesday, February 11, 2009

Sorry....

I noticed that I've abandonned my blog for a while now... So I just wanted to say sorry to it..
Sorry http://bearbear-ky.blogspot.com/, for I have abandonned you...
Sorry http://bearbear-ky.blogspot.com/, for I have not touched you...
I haven't gone to another blog.. no no no... I'm still loyal... I will not cheat on you...
Please forgive me...
OK! Enough apologies. LoL...
Actually I've come to say sorry to all those readers for not being able to come up with an inspirational quote everytime I post something up. It was suppose to be something that I can think of, or something that I've heard, just something nice and inspirational <--- (I hope)
Been a while since I could think of those stuff. And no, I don't wanna go search for it, it has to be original. That's why all of it comes from either my own brain, or my memory.
Been hard to think of those stuff, especially with midterms, assignments, lectures every week.
Not to forget dim sum and sushi as well... xD
Will try to think of some next time.
Now gotta study for quizzes... xD
"To be forgotten... is bad. But to forget... that's even worse...
To love... is a desire. To be loved... now that's a necessity.."
No relation to this post, just thought of it... xD

Small, Quick Announcement...

Just in case you guys didn't notice or anything, my family (Dad, Bro, and Sis) have blogs on blogspot. previously it was on Yahoo 360 but since that one was a lot of hassle and stuff, they came to blogger.
So, I've linked them, but sadly for you guys, those are private blogs, that is to say, NO ENTRY!
And the question you guys would have is whether my family read my blogs and stuff...
The answer is a definite big YES~! (I hope... >_<) Otherwise I wouldn't have a group of perma readers right? Haha~
Well... although my family's been reading my blog, it is not necessary for others to stop commenting, chatting, etc... unless you want to project a nice image on my family. (Why you wanna do that... no idea)
So be normal, don't have to paiseh around here. My family is a nice family, they're not that judgmental on outsiders... xD
No need to be scared... just be yourself and that would be all that is needed
*Small note to my family:
If you guys wanna comment or anything, or join in the wacky conversation currently dominated by Ann and Kenneth, or create anything to discuss, feel free. No need to paiseh also. *
Another thing would be your own blogs. I have no idea whether if my family(particularly my mum... she and avid fan of my blog... =D) would click on one of those links and read your blog. So whatever you post there... is... er... how should I put it... let's just say I can't jaga... xD
But most probably they won't ;)

Tuesday, February 3, 2009

Right? Wrong? I Don't Know...

Can't seem to do anything right these days,
right or wrong, I do not know,
if it looks right, it could be wrong,
sometimes it looks wrong, but turns out to be right,
Why does two wrong don't make a right?
Why do we only have lefts and rights?
Where is the road straight ahead?
Wish there was a blinding light to guide me ahead, for I am lost,
losing everything, something, anything.
Don't mind this rant here, I don't wanna be a burden to anyone,
I just some time, time to find the light, or let it find me, and I'll be alright.
But time, time is all that i'm searching for right now...
Feel so pathetic now.
Feeling shackled, due to self-induced pain.
"To free oneself, one must first forgive his/her ownself"
But I can't right now...

Sunday, February 1, 2009

New House! (Hopefully)

Kitchen~ So spacious... enormous...

Bedroom~

Same bedroom, another part~ (Don't mind the flag pls...)

Another bedroom~
Bathroom~
Well, just went to see a new place to live in. Kinda liked it. ^^ Further details later~.