Merry Christmas~!

Title speaks for itself... XD

Boredom~

Finals over... roommate gone back. One guy, one house, one laptop, how many things can he do? Lol, the euphoria of the end of final exams have worn off, and now, this guy is bored...

BORED!!!

So now, download movies, go tai ka jie's place to work out (tyre getting bigger... xD)

Other than that, hair getting long, dunno whether to cut or not. I like my hair... just a bit messy. Reminds me of Harry Potter, if only I can get a lightning shaped scar on me forehead...xD

Been singing out loud in my HOUSE after so long, not able to do so with that roommate around (paiseh) LOL.

Going Toronto! Whee~ Zupp Zab Zab Zap Zop Ding!

Sorry, a bit hyper right now~

So nowadays, sleep, work out, cook, foodwhore(not camwhore) laptopping... that's pretty much it

An example of foodwhoring:

Spaghetti, with carrot, onion, long beans, tomato, lap cheong and minced pork

Helpless~

Hmmm... I'm having my finals but that's not my biggest concern right now. More importantly is the people around me facing bigger problems that I'm more afraid of.

First, we have May, dealing with her problems with JPA about her major, alone. I can't help as much as I want to, seeing that I never had any real real-life problem solving skills. I'm just sorry that I can't help you in your predicament. But if you need to talk, I'll always be there ok?

Then, I have my sai mui in the fifth floor. I wonder how she's doing, alone up there, with a housemate that she detest so much. Even my roommate is better, which, I wouldn't say is that good. And now she caught a stomach bug, hopefully get better la...

Closer to the heart, I haven't seen someone in a while. Wonder what she's doing, wonder how she's facing the exams. Hopefully no stress, enough sleep, happy.

After that, got someone in taiping. Seems so depressed. Friends all leaving and she's not getting along well with people in uni. Don't feel lonely ok? Still got me, although I'm not there also. Hopefully you get to see your meteor stars and make your three wishes.

Another, also in Malaysia, although I've never seen you, talking to you is a pleasure of mine.

Then, tai ka jie, still ok la I guess, although, she seems to be bottling up a lot. Though outside seems happy, but then... one day scared explode then I won't have the same tai ka jie anymore.

Haiz... but seeing all of them like that. I dunno what I can do. Feel so helpless...

DimSum!

Yes! Today's theme is dimsum! Muahaha, went and eat this morning...

Last photo shows the amount that I had that morning. All mine!!! Muahaha~ btw, restaurant was empty because of the cold weather outside... xD

Chem Test~

Whee... just finished my chemistry test... finish in an hour... dunno whether is it a good or a bad thing. I'm just glad that its over.

Nowadays, my brain is getting weirder and weirder during exams... Previously during linear algebra, my brain sang "Have You Ever Really Loved A Woman - Bryan Adams". This time, during Chemistry, it sang "Kenangan Terindah - Samsons". I'm like humming the whole song throughout that one whole hour, and the guy next to me kept looking at me... I'll bet in his head, his thinking, "this guy... damn distracting... how to do my exam le..."

Hmmm... now I still have Psychology and Physics papers left... I'm wondering what song will my brain cook up at that time...

Btw, took a few photos on the way back from Chemistry...

For Those That Wonder

Lol, well, just wanna show, the difference between the start of autumn, and start of winter...
Picture in the top is the tree taken when I first came here, on the bottom, is now.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=iNHzko3q9iU
And for those that wonder what snow fall looks like, here... Sorry for not giving a better quality video, its only a digital camera, what you expect? Hehe...
Ok... time to go back to my Chemistry...

Realization

I realised something, I am moodier than usual, and I can't say that its due to stress from exams. Excuses, I have many, but none are true. These are just the veils for me to hide myself, to keep myself at a distance. And I've been pushing people that matter most to me away. I don't and can't understand why. I'm afraid that I might have pushed them away too far, too much...

And I fear that one day, I'll be left alone. Left... alone...

Nowadays, I picture myself in a desert, with shadows of people walking by. As I reach out, they crumble, into the sand, as if they too, are made of sand, and my heart despair. I long for my happy-go-lucky life, but is it possible? Is it within my reach? Have I lost it to the winds?

For those that I have pushed, or felt like I have pushed them, I'm really sorry. I'm just not myself lately. I'm recollecting my thoughts... no... not really, I'm not. I... just don't know what to do... and thus, I come up with excuses, lots of them, feeble excuses just to try to defend what's left of me, but the more I try to defend, the more I push myself into the abyss...

Wish I was a feather, to be carried by the wind, to lands unknown, where I land doesn't matter...

Weird~

I just finished my first final and it was ok I would say. But the one weird thing is, its a Maths paper (linear algebra) and my head keeps playing this song, "Have You Ever Really Loved A Woman" by Bryan Adams. I just don't get it... its a MATHS paper for god's sake and my brain is playing this song? Brain ar brain... play something else can? Sometimes, I just don't get how my brain works, or why it isn't working the way that I want it to be...

Right now, as I'm studying calculus, my brain is so darn quiet, which would be good, except that it ain't absorbing what I'm studying... =.="

Feeling Empty~

Right now, I miss my teddy so much... Feel like jumping on a plane and go back to Malaysia just to give him a tight squeeze. Until now, I've never really thought about how much he has done for me, but looking back, he has tremendously helped me in so many ways, its almost unbearable to part with him. When I first came here, I told myself, it will be fine without him. However, as the days go by, I find myself thinking bout him, and notice, I use 'him' instead of 'it', that's how close I am to him. He is not only a teddy bear to cuddle when you want to, but he is a friend, almost like a small brother to me. He is my buddy, my comfort mate. I just realise that everytime I needed someone to talk to, to listen to my troubles, I don't usually look for a real person... instead, I look for him. Not because he won't blab my worries to others, but because he provides a comfort zone for me, a zone where I'm free, free to express anything and everything. He has this face, cute little face where he always smiles, always telling me that there will be a brighter day tomorrow. Whenever he's around, I feel light, as though nothing in this world actually matters, just because he is there, with me, right by my side. Right now, I can't feel anything, like I'm dead, and he is the only one that can get me out of this state. I miss him so badly now...

For now, I'm trying to stabilise myself, get a hold of myself, until I see him once again. So, I'm excusing myself from this world, I need a break from this world. God, life is tough...

Although I'm excusing myself, if any of you thinks that you need a friend to talk to, you guys can always find me, but I can't gurantee the same usual cheerful self that you guys are more accustomed to. My senses are still with me, just that I'm void of laughter. Just leave a message in MSN.

"Its tough, living in this world, that's why we need our friends... to help us get through each day without sticking a bullet through our head..."

Ugh~

Today ain't a very good day. Nearly chopped one finger off while chopping onions... ouch! Lucky I wasn't in slicing action, otherwise, the wound would be a lot deeper, its like a small knock on the finger, that's all. But still painful... T_T...
Reminds me of the malay prose 'Raja Bersiung'... hopefully I don't turn into him...
But then, I just realised something, just a few moments ago, I chatted with hueywen, my friend in Taiping and she asked whether I updated my blog... and I told her I had nothing to write yet... Hmmm... fishy fishy... (and shuann, not sushi)
But then, I guess I also brought it onto myself la... not paying attention to the mushroom, but instead the mind flew off to some place, thinking about a 6-hour crash course on calculus...
Anyway. hueywen, now I got something to write la! nah!

Now I Know~

Now I realise why westerners are so FAT.

I've been eating out quite a lot this few days, partly due to lazyness in cooking, partly due to studies(if you can believe it), so that day, I went out for dinner. Had shish taouk(don't mind the spelling) and once I paid for it, only then did I realise, I'm eating bread, with chicken and vege inside, served with a big box of potatoes, and a soft drink. For the box of potatoes, I have a choice of having potatoes with rice, or just potatoes.

That's when I realise, this is so full of carbs! Carbs here, there, everywhere, even the choices given to me was full of carbs! And no, there's no usual rice with vege and meat, its was all bread... I swear not to go to these kinds of places anymore, it makes the patrons so god damn full that we can hardly walk after that. I'm definitely going to eat at a place opened by chinese people nowadays, because they, at least, still have some common sense about the capacity of the human stomach.

Just Something, Ponder About It~

Just recently, I posted this as my private message on msn, just something I wanted to find out:

Given f(x,y,z) = (2x+3y-z)/(4(x^2) + y^(2z-2x))... find 4+2.

And from the response that I got:

1 said that it was confusing,

2 got it right immediately,

2 got it right after being pushed a little to think further.

Its quite funny really, because the answer is quite obvious. 4+2 = 6, right? And yet, some people say that its confusing, its difficult, some needed more time to think about it.

And this is my point in mind when I posted this,

STOP THINKING SO MUCH!

This also applies in life I guess, when one thinks too much about something, one tends to think about all the complications that doesn't really actually matter.

Take the question for example, it gives a function of three variables, but it asked an elementary question which any being that knows how to add can answer. The equation is just to mess things up. It applies in life, we think about way too much things that isn't related to the problem, and thus, we can't see the simple clear solution that happens to be right in front of us.

I'll leave you to your thoughts right now and ponder this... but then again, don't think too long...

"Life is a bed of roses, but if we worry too much about the thorns, how are we going to appreciate the beauty of the roses?"

Snow!

Woohoo~! It snowed! Too bad I only get to go out at 12am because of a dumb MATH 133 (linear algebra) assignment. Anyway, initially was to go out, take a few pics, and come in... but then again, the power of friends and *ahem*... well... these things tend to drag on a little while longer, and one thing led to another..

And so... we went out to play! (Although finals are looming but who cares?! It's snowing! xD)

Now, I'm wet all over... but it was worth it... hehe~

Night scene during snow

That is the thickness... and its still snowing!

Three sitting in the snow... tired liao i guess from running around...

Smile!

Problem

I just noticed something. I have a very terrible habit when I'm cooking...

I love to nibble everything that I cook.

I love to use my fork and start poking around. I dunno why. Just felt like it. And, well, one thing leads to another, and the fork, eventually pokes something and takes it to my mouth. Its like a robotic action for my hand to feed my mouth with the fork.

Argh... I gotta stop this habit, otherwise, when my rice is done and my chicken(usually it takes the longest time to cook) is fried, I have nothing left! Sure, one might argue that eventually it all ends up in my tummy but... I wanna eat them all together!!! I don't wanna separate them... Let them have one last gathering outside my stomach before they regroup again in that huge space at the end of the esofagus.

I blame this entirely on my fork, because if it weren't there, my hand wouldn't grab hold of it, and start poking, and start feeding. Bad fork! Bad fork! I think I'm going to have to write a note and stick it on the fork,

"DO NOT TOUCH UNLESS EVERYTHING IS GATHERED ON THE PLATE"

That should do it.

"The fact of the matter is, we can blame everyone, and everyone will improve, but the question is... what about ourselves?"

Fire Drill... zzzz~

Just had a fire drill in my residence, and to tell you the truth, I do not like it at all. >.<

The freaking alarm was loud, continuous but monotonous. Haiz, they should have make it so that the alarm has some funky tune that will make people dance out of their houses. It just pisses me off to hear that alarm, reminds me of the fire drills back in secondary school.

Since this is our first fire drill, the man in the black uniform with reflective thingy said that they will perform this drill twice... I hope its per year because my ears were temporarily snuffed out of its primary function due to the incessant ringing. After that, he said, sorry(I think... or he better) and said that we can go back. And I'm like ok... that's it? Damn it, I shouldn't have came down in the first place...

Right now, I'm feeling a little agitated... lucky for the man, it ain't to the point where I start cursing people to kingdom come, otherwise, he is my first target...

This Is What I Call "All In"

Hehe, due to fear of food going bad, I tossed everything into the pan and started frying.
This is the end result... muahaha... this is what they call "yat wok sok" in cantonese I think.

Hahaha, success!

Muahaha, I finally did it! Huhuhu... success is mine! Wakakaka~ feel so happy right now. Wheeee...

For those of you that is wondering what the heck is this, its called deep fried ice-cream.

The pic above is the second try, first try, ice-cream melted, enough said.

"In life, one should always learn something new, otherwise, one tends to regret in life later on. So learn, and keep on learning, for in life, learning is an endless journey, with the prize found along the way..."

ChinaTown~ Alone... Jeng Jeng Jeng...

Well... I just came back from chinatown and guess what, it ain't easy to be in chinatown alone. Especially, when the person is me, a guy, who is chinese, but doesn't speak chinese... And what was I gonna buy? meat... of all things, because i'm sick of chicken, oh and other stuff too.

Buying the other stuff is easy, its packed and put in plastic bags, so you just take them of the shelves and pay at the counter. But meat is a whole different story. Its like at the market, and the guy chops the meat according to how much you want. I wanted pork ribs(bak kut), minced meat, and the fatty meat(sam chan yuk... dunno whether this term is really correct or not)

So, this is my conversation with the ah pak(ap):

me: lei dei yao mou pai kuat ar?

ap: yao... lei you gei dor ar?

me: erm.... tim gong le...

ap: (cutting the pai kuat) gam dak mou? sam tiu?

me: (relieved) oo... dak la dak la...

ap: zhong yao meh mou?

me: lei dei yao mou yuk sui ar? (yuk sui is minced meat in canto)

ap: yao... you gei dor ar? (stares at me)

me: lei dei tim mai ar?

ap: lei you gei dor ngor ma bei lei gei dor lo...

me: errr... (silence - because I forgot pounds in canto, almost wanted to say yat kan, one catty)

ap: lei you yat pong ar, leung pong ar?

me: oh, yat pong jou kau lo...

ap: hai hai, ji dou ji dou

me: zhong yao, lei yao mou "wu hua rou" <-- mandarin? (tempted to say mm fa yuk... lol)

ap: (strong china accent)"wu hua rou"... you you... ni yao duo shau? (Suddenly... the conversation turned to mandarin pulak...)

me: errr... ni na lai wo kan kan

ap: che yang gou ma?

me: gou liao gou liao.

ap: hai you shen me ma?

me: mei you mei you, che yang gou liao. xie xie. (rushes to the counter)

And there you have it... KY's first real canto-cum-mandarin conversation. For those that really know how I talk in chinese, you'll be laughing to bits if you were there. For those that don't know, let's just say, it's better not knowing. Anyway, I got my stuff, I'm happy, and that's all that matters.

Hmmm... what to do during free times~

Well... might as well plan my free time while I'm having a little bit of free time... haha, a bit intriguing this sentence. Well... its true, I don't have much free time nowadays and its always good to plan before hand right?

Well, let's see... I have a few things on my mind that I can think of now that can fill up my free time:

1. Study

2. Watch chinese dramas

3. Watch anime

4. Cook/Find new recipes

5. Look for more anime songs

6. Listen to more songs other than my chinese/english songs

That's about all for now, until I can find more stuff to do. These are just a few things I'm thinking so that I'll play less DoTA(seriously, getting kinda bored with it, Malaysian players make it interesting I guess...)

Until then, cheerios!

Why~

Why is it that :
When we want something to happen, another thing happens?
When we want to stay focused, our minds tend to stray?
When we want to relax, so many issues trouble our mind?
When we want to remember, we always forget?
When we want to forget, we are haunted by the memory of it?
When we want to say something, we can't get the words out?
When we want to believe in something, it will never happen?
When we want to change, we stay more the same?
When we want to think about good times, the bad times are all we recall?
When we want to remember somebody, we recall evil over good?
When we want to find something, that thing is ever so elusive?
When we want something, we will never get it?
When we want to appreciate something, it is too late?
When we want to ask for help, the words 'please' and 'thank you' is lost?
When we want to apologize, the word 'sorry' is non-existent?
When we want to be somewhere, we'll never get there?
When we want to avoid a place, no matter what we do, we end up at that particular place eventually?

So many questions, so many answers, which will lead to more questions, and answers, and the cycle continues...
But one last question:
Why is it that when we ask a question, we expect an answer?
Pondering~ thinking~
I'll leave it as such...

Roommate's Family's Here~ Lolz...

Well... my roommate's family dropped by... (still here) and the whole day, his mum's been cleaning the kitchen, his room... cleaning a whole lot of stuff. Jolly kind of mum, the type where the smile brightens up the whole room... kinda. Anyway, the mum's been busy in the kitchen, cleaning and cooking for her son so I haven't gotten the chance to even enter the kitchen to grab a bite to eat. Lol, talk about sacrifice. The mum did offer to cook for me but... for some reason, I just couldn't bring myself to accept. Smells good though, gotta give her that, hopefully she imparts some skills to my roommate because his cooking makes me feel like something's rotting in the kitchen.

The mum also got him a whole lot of stuff, food mostly, and she once in a while chats with me. Small talk, not the really-get-to-know-you interrogation type talk. And whole time, if she's not in the kitchen, she's in the room... thank god, because i like to keep my privacy. And the fact that they all speak mostly mandarin is enough to make me keep away from them for sheer embarassment worrying I utter the wrong chinese word. In fact, other than the mum, I don't see any other members of his family, although they're here. Guess this family is all about "in the room, not the outside".

But can't really say that I don't like them here, because they brought me a special gift... a microwave! Haha, they went out and got one, and said I can use it too... muahaha~ I am so gonna sayang the microwave... but first, I gotta get some microwavables to microwave first.

Happy Birthday, Twice!

(L-R) ShuAnn, Jeanne, Me, Constance, YuenYee

Haha, last Tuesday was Jeanne's birthday and since ShuAnn's birthday is only three days ahead, might as well celebrate both birthday's at the same time right? Well... it was supposed to be a surprise for Jeanne and ShuAnn but being the smart girl that Jeanne has always been, and judging by her expression, I think she already knew it coming. Anyhow, we still had a great time. On the other hand, the other one, as blur as ever, was beyond words. Lolz~

Birthday Girls - ShuAnn & Jeanne

Here's the two birthday girls, the one with the funny looking hat is ShuAnn and the, I would say normally attired one would be Jeanne. Haha~

Had a whole lot of food that night, I'm almost certain I'm gonna be fat again^^. As for the others... they've been complaining about getting fat so I'm guessing this will only strengthen their "sei lo... getting fat lo" saying. I'll just leave them at that la since no amount of words will be able to change that mindset... especially after a good, hearty meal. Maybe another day~

And the magical thing that happened that night was that it snowed... heavily. And being the stupid being that I am, I forgot to bring a pair of gloves, so at the end of the day, my fingers were freezing numb and I had to run hot water over them for 3 minutes before I could feel again. Fingers working fine now, as proven by this post.

Had a pint of beer too during the dinner, taste good, felt good, because it was good. Didn't feel much of the effects but hey, its only a pint right? No harm done.

Right now, looking forward to the next person's birthday which would be... hmmm... JiaMan's? I think his is next, and after that Constance... and then... well... I know who's come after that, but no need to tell you guys right? Haha~

"Don't treat everyday as if it was your last, but treat everyday as special as you can, because everyday is special in its own unique way, and once the day is gone, the only thing left is the wonderful memories of the day, cherish it..."

Nothing Better To Do...

Lolz, made breakfast one fine morning after studying physics. Usually not a breakfast kind of person but dunno why, this morning, felt like having one. And with time to kill, what better breakfast than an egg and bologna sandwich, egg and bologna, with milk! I didn't even plan this breakfast, but... it jut sort of came to me to make this and so I did. Really a satisfying meal for starting the day. Hehe~

OMG... today is so screwed up...

Haha, today I screwed up almost everything, my chem lab, my classes, my physics assignment. And to make things worse, I had a hard time looking for my calculator, with a calculus midterm coming...

So, chem lab, nearly put the wrong acid into the solution, luckily I was clear and stopped myself in time. Just got my lab results back, Lab 1, 87/100, Lab 2, 60/100... Haiz, Lab 2 results were bad because I didn't know how to answer the question.

Then, classes, slept in it again, I dunno why, perhaps, the lecturer voice is lulling me to sleep? Haha I don't really know.

Physics assignment, I have nothing better to say liao, got my first marks cut off... 1.5 freaking marks... out of ten... >.<>

And about my calculator, don't worry about it anymore, I found it again, after 12 hours of worry... Seems that Yati took my calculator accidently, and she had the nerve to compared me to KhaiPin, as if I'm as bad as him... Ish~ Puh-lease... I'm way ahead of him in terms of knowing where my stuff are... muahaha

That's all for today, by the way, I went to school, at 12pm until 5pm, without a sweater, because I forgot to bring it out with me. ~LOL~ so there I was, walking in a T-shirt and jeans, at 5 degrees Celsius, luckily, my body can still take it, and so, nothing happened to me. Phew~ Gotta remember my trusty jacket/sweater next time. Haha~

Haiz, now room got problem~

Its not really a problem actually, it doesn't bother me, but the fact that there's bugs in the kitchen scared the living hell out of my roommate. Now, everytime he sees one small itsy bitsy bug, he moves everything out of the kitchen, appliance, food, plates, everything... out of the kitchen, and sprays it with bug spray. I mean, come on, its just one small bug, let it live! And the fact that he lives inside his room all day means that the bug doesn't even know that his there, and suddenly all of a sudden, he's on a bug killing rampage. This is like so wtf! and now, everything is on the table, looks like we're moving out or something, and when he moves it out, who has to put it back in? Me, I, Aku, Saya, Wa, Wo, Ngor... Haiz... hopefully those bugs smarten up and visit me at my bed and not kacau the kitchen anymore, if not, they're asking for war with my roommate...

I'm fine~

Thanks for the concern of many during my "down" period. I'm all better now, i contribute my down period to two factors:

1) My inability to organize my time.

2) My inability to sort out what's important, and what's not.

So actually, it looks to me like I brought the "down" period to myself... I've rectified the problems and now, i'm free! Back to my normal self once again! Time to spread the joy around again! Hehe, now that I'm in better control of my situation, it feels good!

Frus~

I got nothing to say. Just feeling frustrated lately, so if I appear to not be sociable, please forgive me. I feel too much is on me now, that's why I'm taking a break from being my usual cheerful, happy-go-lucky self, and gonna go into exile for a while.
"Sometimes, it takes a while before the mind, body and soul becomes clear again. In the mean time, it is best not to hurt the people around you but yourself."

Sorry~

Haih... the other day, I made someone very very upset. Its all my fault actually. I made a promise, but didn't keep it. I know that I'm supposed to meet her, yes, its a she, but sadly, I did not. I'm really really sorry that I did not keep my promise. Its not like I did not want to meet her, I badly wanted to...

Anyway, whatever I say now is useless, the only thing that I can do is try to make it up to her. Now, all I can say is... I'm sorry, deeply and truly sorry...

"Sorry seems to be the hardest word... That's is why it is always better not to have to say it..."

Lolz~

I haven't been talking much about my cooking already these days, so now I saja showing what I cooked for my dinner before my chem mid-term... hehe... took a while to cook... I also dunno why I made it, since I haven't finished studying for the mid-term. Lolz.

This time no quote or anything, too lazy to think, gotta cram the head full of chem stuff.

Not Replacements! But Additions~

Haha~ with the absence of my beloved BearBear and Panda, I added two more furry but cute creatures to my family. (Added, not replaced! I still love my BearBear and Panda) They don't have any names yet, still thinking... they should have names after my mid-term... if I decide to name them of course. Right now, they're my study partners! (Oh ya, picture quality not so good because I used my phone instead of my camera, too lazy to go and get it... =P)

"Some things, although missed, cannot be replaced... instead, other things can lessen the feeling of its absence..."

On A Lighter Note...

I noticed that I've been depicting myself as very unhappy, stuff like that in the previous post. I'm just a bit unsatisfied with the way things are right now, like no rice cooker and the laptop still broken. So, I'm writing this to ensure everyone that everything is fine, nothing to worry about. I will still be the cheerful guy that you always know. (cheerful right?)

So to change the mood a little, I just wanna say something that changed ever since I got here... my taste for music! Its changed! I never thought that I would ever be hooked to listening to chinese songs, I always thought that I would be an all-English music listener but ever since I got here, all the songs that I downloaded is chinese songs. I know, some of you would be going like this (=.=) at the sound of this. I blame it all on HueyWen... my friend from taiping. She likes S.H.E. and Jay Chou so much... and keeps sending me these nice songs. Thanks!

And I think that me branching off to another language in music really has an effect on me... I also starting to like Malay songs, of course not like the P.Ramlee type but something along the tunes of PeterPan...

And I know that my parents won't believe this, but after all these years of listening to their collection of ABBA and Carpenters... I'm starting to like it! God, I'm so easily influenced when it comes to music.

So if any of you have any interesting songs to share with me... any language... no discrimination, tell me ok? I'll be glad to listen and judge... hehe...

"Its boring to stick to only one, better to have diversity..."

So Many Things That I Want, Still Waiting...

Argh... I am so frustrated with stuff here. Not because of the condition, or the people... just frustrated. And no, its not because of studies. Its just that well, I've been waiting for a few things and the thing is... they haven't shown up. Those stuff must be taking a cruise ship to the Carribeans before coming to me. Hopefully, they have nice stories to tell me... hehe. Well... actually, its not many things really... just a rice cooker... and getting my laptop fixed... and my teddy... and panda... Well... not much right?

Also... I'm gonna need to buy clothes, especially shorts because I just realised that I don't have enough... stressed too much on T-shirts that I forgot about covering my bottom. Anyway, back to the main topic! RICE COOKER! Its been a week now and I'm surviving mostly on noodles! And of course the occasional (not daily) dinners with YuenYee and Jeanne. Thanks to them, my craving for rice is somewhat lessened... Thanks a bunch! But still, its always good to be able to cook your own rice... I wanna make hainan chicken rice... T_T...

Also, about getting my laptop fixed, that would be JiaMan's job, since it was he that broke it, =P. Still, I have this bad inkling that the guy he found is trying to trick him... hmmm... hopefully all goes well, no funny thing comes out of my computer after its fixed... >.<

And about my bear and panda... optional! not really needed here but it would be nicer with them around... hehe, anyway, that matter will be discussed with the higher power once the rice cooker comes and laptop repaired. Until then, I'm just gonna stare at my color-disorientated LCD screen.

"Waiting is part and parcel of life, however, waiting for too long will have dire consequences, to which, action must be taken to prevent it"

Just Rambling~

Just recently I discovered something, something really special that was so near to me... so dear to my heart. Its not really a discovery but I could say that it was fate. Its like it was coming for me, and I had the feeling that it was coming too, but somehow, it was a good feeling, and I just let it be.

Turns out I was right, and the good feeling was right. Right now I feel like the luckiest guy on earth... =). What is it that I discovered... I won't be revealling it in the nearest time possible... muahaha

"It's feels good when you know that something good will come to you, you just don't expect when it will happen, and that is the beauty of it..."

OMG...

Yes, I just had my calculus quiz and although it was relatively easy... I screwed up on one question... And there were only 2! Now, I'm still trying to understand how I got that question wrong, it was straight forward, no tricks, and eventually, I found out what I did wrong. I changed a minus sign to a plus sign, and I don't even know why I changed it. Hmmm... a moment of non-concentration perhaps? Because after the quiz, my mind was totally blank and usually I can at least recall what I did during the quiz, but this time, it went totally blank. Hmmm... very weird...

And lastly, to reply to all comments, THANKS FOR THE SUPPORT! Terima kasih! 谢谢! Nandri! Merci! ありがとう! 당신을 감사하십시오! Gracias! And the waking up problem almost solved, need to train more only... Haha...

"When you don't realise what you are doing in the first place, that's the sign of you having bigger problems to come"

Going Up... And Down~

Let me see... first order of business, rant like hell... second order... reply to the comments of the previous two posts... OK, ready!

Ladies and... wait, what am I doing? Sounds like I'm gonna give a speech... So let's cut the chitchat and start ranting. Well, what is there for me to rant? Well... ever since I've been here, its been a lot of ups and downs for me. Let me try to list them down:-

We'll start with downs, because there's so many of them:

1. Temperature is going down.

2. Blood is running down my nose but thank God its not severe

3. I have to walk down the street everyday to get to classes

4. My hands' sensitivity to touch is going down

5. I just realised that my memory is down at least one notch

6. Money is obviously going down

7. My alertness level in class goes down after the first 10 minutes of lecture

8. Motivation level to study now is low and its going down

9. Rate at which I eat ice-cream is going down to nearly 0

10. The determination to wake up every morning is going down and its going so low that I might actually hibernate

But don't worry, there are also ups:-

1. My weight is going up

2. I climb the stairs everyday to my house because the lift is so slow

3. My skills in DOTA is going up(hopefully) or the people here are just not on the same level with Malaysians

4. The number of times that I can crack my joints is going up

5. Laundry piling up

6. Amount of assignments are starting to go up

7. Feelings of going home(aka homesickness) is going up

Well, that's the ups and downs that I can think of right now, if there's more, I'll post it.

Second order of business today, replying to comments!

Sulin: Erm... that method about me paying my housemate everytime I don't wake up will make him really really rich...

Hippo: Big fat alarm clock I have, but wake up I cannot! Btw, those two guinea pigs are fine, I think... hehe...

David: I know that hamsters are cute, that's why I have guinea pigs to test food instead!

Well, that's all for now! Have a great day and to all those gamers, gl hf! <-- this also applys to life

"Ups and downs are a norm in life. Without them, what is life? Just a straight line. Might as well be dead, just like the green straight line displayed by the EEG"

Found Two Guinea Pigs~

Haha, I finally found two guinea pigs for my cooking! Previously, the guinea pig was me... So now, I have two! See~ those two~ Finally I can try out something out of the ordinary... like poison! No la, actually, this is just breakfast that I cooked, so I was looking for people to taste it. I can't judge my own food that well. But by the looks of it (and their satisfied looks after the meal), I think it should be quite nice.

I fried sausage and eggs(one plate scrambled eggs, one plate has two sunny side-up), looks kinda good if I do say so myself, as you can see from the photo itself. As for the brown stuff with a white patch, its called french toast, with a dollop of ice-cream at the top. For those that are looking at this, and hoping to get some, well, you know what to do right? Haha...

"Chances will always drop by, so never fret over one that was missed and in the process, miss more that will come"

Oh Well... Some Things Never Change I Guess...

That's right, there are some things that will never change. For instance, my laziness in getting out of bed every morning. That's right, I admit it, I am lazy to get up in the morning! No matter where the place, no matter what the temperature, no matter rain or shine, I will continue to sleep... So, you might wonder, why am I ranting on and on about this, its normal right? After all, a teenager spends most of his days sleeping... Well, the reason that I am so frustrated with the way I am sleeping now is because... I AM LATE FOR CLASS EVERY FREAKING DAY~ Haih... well, if anyone has any suggestions... I'm all ears...

As for comments on the previous blog... since so many of you are so curious...

SuLin & David: Those phrases is sendiri fikir punya... never knew that I was so insightful eh? =P

HueyWen: Your words actually no need to beware because my parents are only gonna just read, no comments, I think... =). And GOOD LUCK IN YOUR EXAM!

YinYee: Actually, my room is only the bedroom, the kitchen is called "shared property" between my roommate and I.

"The lack of an element is called deficiency, too much of it is called overdose, all in all, it is best to be in moderation"

Room~ for those that wanna see

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rO93BNEIlO4
Well... this post is actually for my parents to see, since they want to know bout my room so much~ (and yes, they do read my blog...in case you are wondering) Please, pretty pretty please, don't laugh at my voice during the video... I know that it sounds weird but you know these things, its weird talking to the camera... oh, and I'm not sure about the sound, it might be too soft...
Ah, I give up... when I try to upload a video here, so many problems crop up. So, if wanna see my room, click on the link above and it'll direct you to YouTube.

"Humans survive by adapting... adapting to the new surroundings..."

Cooking!

Well, this is my first dinner that I cooked myself, a bit bangga la you know? Taste good too!


And this is just something that I had for breakfast. Bacon and eggs! Turns out ok.

So why am I showing these photos??? Its to prove that I CAN COOK. Muahaha....
For those that say that I can't... right back at ya~!

And to reply to those comments from my previous post, I know, your mouth must be watering by now so please control yourself... wakakakakakaka
HueyWen: Sorry, I very long only update, will try to update somemore
SuLin : As I have said, that is for me to know and for you to find out! =P
David : I got nothing to say...
Hippo : Yes, Montreal is dam swee(beautiful) not sui(bad luck). That's why, why you go toronto also I dunno... haha

"Never underestimate people that do not show their skills immediately as they assess the situation, and act based on their assessment"

Montreal~~~

Alright! I'm in Montreal now and it feels great! That's a view from Mont Royal, at night. Isn't it wonderful? It's a long hike up the hill before you get to see this, and this isn't the top yet. I was just too lazy to walk up anymore.

And this is a wall that I found in CHINATOWN! Yes, I have a chinatown and so for those that keep saying that I'll miss chinese food, you guys are so wrong!

See? Wan Tan Mee~!

But of course, it would be pointless for me to just go around by myself isn't it? That's why I brought along 4 "leng lui"s to accompany me, haha. Just for your information, (L-R) Jeanne, Erica(aka Yuen Yee <-- this sounds better for me), Shu Ann, Constance. I'm not in the picture obviously because I'm taking the pic! I hope the one more "leng lui" in Taiping doesn't get jealous... haha... joke joke... =P

Well, that's all for now I think. Till next time~!

"The fear of the unknown can always be conquered with the discovery of the wonderful things within the unknown"

Wheeeeee... riding an urban horse... XD

That's right! I am now riding an urban horse! Official already. Any car that I drive will make people feel like riding a horse! So, for the rocking horse motion, anyone is invited to come and see on the car that I drive! (At the risk of your life that is...)

Well, its been a while since I touched a steering wheel and so, for the past few days... I have been... erm... taking it for a spin. Really felt like riding a horse, smooth road but people inside feel really, realy bumpy... haha. Well, that's my mum's opinion anyway, since she's the only one who is daring enough to sit inside the car with me...XD.

But my driving still sucks lar... I have to admit it, so I guess, I'll have to practise some more, which means that Mom gets to enjoy a few more horse rides! Yippee!!!

You know what they say,

"Practice makes perfect, but being perfect should not be the aim, because perfection tends to lead to over-confidence..."

My Eyes!!!

Haih... jsut finished with two medical check-ups. One for JPA, one for Canadian Visa. Both of them require an eye check, with and without glasses. All this while, I thought my eyes were good for me, so I thought its gonna be easy. Mana tau... at the clinic, the doctor ask me to read the letter, I can't see the freaking letter!!! Sh!t... it was actually a C but what I saw was either a D or an O. Haih~ then when I put on my glasses, it was clearer... but oni by a fraction!!! I still could not see the C!!! I amd still seeing Ds and Os...
I just stood there, unable to decipher the C... so eventually, what do you do when you don't know? (And there is no "I don't know" option available) So I guessed D, to which the doctor just scribble something on the form. I got a little scared at that time. What if I cannot fly because of my eyes? What's gonna happen to me? Oh no... Oh well, I thought, time to get new glasses.
So, I went to my neighbour's shop and got myself a new pair of glasses. Coming on Wednesday, can't wait to see it! (If I can, that is) Haha...
But I guess I have to cut down on me staring at the computer screen liao... Maybe I should stare more at the tv...
"Prevention is better than cure... but once its done, preventive measures are better than none!!!"

Medical Check Up Done... What A Harrowing Experience...

Finally, I received the e-mail from Canadian High Commission to do my medical check-up. They sure take their own sweet time to do stuff... especially the receptionist there. So I got to the HCC, took my medical form(waited for 1 hr, taking just took me 5 minutes) and headed to Klinik Segera in City Square.

A small clinic situated in a shopping complex, I wasn't expecting much from this clinic. Heck, to get an X-ray done, I had to walk across a busy street to the other side, go up 2 floors, and search for an X-ray specialist clinic to have my X-ray done. (By the way, it sure is a freaking small X-ray clinic)

Once its done, I had to walk all the way back to City Square again... walk across the busy street again... all this just to do the check-up. Guys in HCC better approve my application for visa for making me walk so much. At the clinic, the usual test begins... first the height, then weight, then eyesight, and I gotta say that I am gonna need a new pair of specs. The chart looks really, really blur to me... That's all I'm gonna say.

After that, doc took my bp, then checked my nuts... I'm sure most of u gonna say, "What?! CHECKED YOUR NUTS?!" Yeah, that doc sure checked it, don't know whether its alright or not. Hopefully their functional, because I still wanna have babies and stuff...

After nut checking, I was free to go! Now, I gotta wait again... this time for a notification to get the visa(finally!) if I do get it of course.

After that experience, all I can say is:

"Waiting is the beginning, the end, and everything else that is betweem them"

MapleStory... but at a 100x rate...

I just went back to mapling again but this time, its not the usual slow leveling up kind of MapleStory, its at a 100x rate... Talk about fast. Anyway, I played it for only 2 days and now I am a level 90 ranger. Sounds kind of weird because back in the old days, to level from lets say level 50 to 51 would have taken me at least one week, so imagine the rate at which this game is going.

Furthermore, the game has less people, there's only 3 channels, thus making the game less lagging. However, I still lag at times so I'm still trying to figure it out. But the lag won't be able to affect my game I think. After all, I am a freaking gamer!

Although I have only been playing this MapleStory(called Weedstory) for 2 days, I have already felt a little bored with this game. Because it doesn't change the fact that I am still doing the same thing that I do in the old Maplestory, which is training. And more training until I finally am bored of training. At that time, I will just abandon it and go for another game I guess.

Thankfully, in this game, there are several friends that I know, that is, not just any random guy or gal that I meet in the game. So, for now, training with them will be my main motivation for playing the game. But after that, who knows?

"It will always stay the same... when nothing changes... only time will tell..."

Flu and Cough... zzzzz...

Dang, just as I was about to get comfortable at home, the flu bug hit me smack rite into my face. Have always hated that bug and have told it to stay away from me but it never listens... Anyway, now here I am lying in bed on a nice Saturday, when I should be downstairs watching tv... haha.

Then I just say in the news that 2 of our national swimmers also came down with flu. Hmmm... sounds suspicious I would say because other than me and the 2 swimmers, many of my friends have either caught the flu bug or are recovering from an attack. Seems to me like the bugs are putting their heads together and launching a full-scale attack. If that is the case, then we've gotta do something bout it! Can't have them critters spreading their 'thing' all over the place!

Wait a sec... I sound as if I'm gonna have war... but this is WAR! I wanna get better because if I don't, I might not get the study permit! Argh~ I hate this flu... making me feel so miserable... Looks like I better stop now and rest more... DAMN YOU FLU BUG!!! (and by the way, thanks for bringing your friend, the COUGH, with you!!!)

When I get better, I'm gonna... hmmm... not sure what I'm gonna do but I'll think of something... Muahahaha...

Anyway, just a small reminder to those reading this blog:

"Those that fall, will rise again... if they are strong enough..."

BTN camp - brainwashing or enlightenment?

Just recently, I went to this camp. Its called Kem Biro Tatanegara(BTN for short). Anyway, before I went to this camp, there are the usual rumours bout this camp, about how it was a brainwashing camp, how it was to ensure that the scholars sent there would return to their country... even my aunty said repeatedly, "you must come back to Malaysia..." to imply the purpose of the camp... ish ish~ this just portrays the image that the camp has on the public.

So, with a heavy heart, I went to the camp, expecting to be drilled the things that everyone has said... about having to come back to Malaysia. I expected threats, saying that if I don't come back, they'll hunt down every family member known to me. However, this wasn't the case. During the 5 days, 4 nights camp, all we did was learn more about the country, about the constitution, about ourselves as Malaysians... This was not what I expected and therefore came as a huge shock to me.

During the whole camp, all was not prison-like, although the absence of handphone networks did make it seem like that. We were, as they said cut off from the outside world, but soon, I found out that there wouldn't be time for us to connect to the outside world as all of us were kept busy with work. Work here doesn't mean manual labour but we had to study! Or so it seems because on the final day, we had a test and those who have studied will tell that it is actually quite pointless to study. Haih~ all the times spent poring over books which should have been spent for sleep...

But to tell the truth, this camp is not that bad. The 'agenda' that we thought this camp had was all just a misunderstanding. There was no such thing as brainwashing, but I prefer to call it enlightning, because all this camp ever did to me was make me realize how important it is to safeguard our country, to uphold her 'kedaulatan'. Finally, it dawned on me the importance of sending our scholars to this camp. It was not to force them into coming back to Malaysia, it was to make them think for themselves, whether or not they want to come back to Malaysia... because it is after all, the scholars choice to return isn't it?

So I guess I'm all for this camp thingy, even though I wasn't at first. Now, I end my thoughts with this simple saying,

"He who does not have a light, can still see in the dark, as the light in his heart, will shine through always..."

Start Of Something New...

Its been a while now and I finally decided to start a blog. Phew, sure is tough to start something since this has been put off for like a year or so. And when I come to think about it, I have this habit to put things off. Finally it dawned on me about what my mother has always been saying to me which I so strongly deny, that I am a true blue procrastinator... or in her words in hokkien, "lu chin jia gao chien (eh lo)!!!"
As I sit (or lie) here typing this blog, it made me think... what made me want to stall for time? Was it because the work that had to be done is awfully hard? Was it because I had other important things to do? Was it because...? So many was it because questions that all had the same answer... NO. It was not because of any of that. It was just because I was lazy! Too lazy to move an inch, because I was kinda like hoping for it to just pass. Sometimes it did, sometimes it didn't. However, on occasions that it did, I remembered feeling pretty bad, cos it was after all, my job and therefore was mine to finish.
As I went through college with this behaviour/attitude, I found that I got into a whole lot of trouble because of this. Assignments being rushed, homeworks done in a slipshod way... it's a wonder that I manage to graduate from college. Still it is not until now that i finally realize that this kind of life cannot go on... that it will eventually come around and bite me back in the ass...
So now would be the best time to discard this habit and start afresh... hopefully it ain't too late...
"Its is never too late... unless you are standing still, not progressing..."